They're sleeping

Note:This entry was composed last night at about 10PM.

Emergency clinic last night.

She tested positive for Parvo. Parvo == very VERY VERY BAD BAD BAD puppy thing.

Our girl was hurting ... there was nothing we could do ... Mark was all torn up inside... "if you'd ask me last week if I'd feel this way about a dog, I'd have said no way. And it's only been a few days."

Today I ran her back to our usual vet. EClinic only has night hours. He continued antibiotics and IV fluids ...

... there's nothing we can do ... she just looks up at us with those big dark eyes "feel bad" ... and then puts her head back down and trys to get comfortable in some way ... i can't even tell if she's warm enough or too hot or ...

and i keeep feeling like I'm missing what signs she can give of when she needs to go out, to pee, to throw up ...

i'm trying to give the pain and the fear up to the Lord. that's what i know i should be doing after all this Bible study. and that's what i know is the right thing to do for all the other reason's too. i'm asking for the power to do that. i want to ...

i want to ask God to just make her better to make her alright to let her be just the bounding bundle of joy that she should be ...

... i'm so ashamed that i didn't want her at first i'm so ashamed that i was hesitant about getting one ... i Love our Blanch.